As I wait, I reflect...........

Today I see my IF journey in a new light, a journey I am thankful to God for. I am reminded of the words of Rich Mullins' song this morning....

"Sometimes my life just don’t make sense at all, when the mountains seem so big, and my faith just seems so small. So hold me Jesus, cause I’m shaking like a leaf, you have been King of my Glory, won’t you be my Prince of Peace.”

If God had never taken me on this journey, I would never have known how much God truly loves me, an understanding that came only with experience. Sometimes I think I am being punished or God is mad at me and that is why I have to deal with IF, but today I see that this journey brought me closer to my Father and taught me so much about myself and the kind of mother God wants me to be. God will give me such a wonderful gift one day when he gives me a child and he has used the last two years to shape me in to the Godly mother he wants me to be and today I am thankful.....

I look at the world I live in, with all of its imperfections....and I look at the leaders of our country and how imperfect we all are. I learned it is not about the circumstance you are in, it is about how you live in that circumstance that makes the difference. We will never know why we are faced with certain challenges, but today I embrace those challenges because I know God will use it for the good of his kingdom. I will continue to pray for our county and our leaders, they find themselves in unfamilar waters.....I pray that they bring God glory in their actions and daily seek his will for this country. I think that a lot of us have lost our way and it is time for God to put us back on the right path.

I know the love of our Father because I have experienced it first hand the last two years, he loves us unconditionally and sometimes his love is tough. God uses tough love to refine us from within. We are to be a light in this place, a light that shines bright. So it is time for us to stand up and shows God's love....united we stand, divided we fall. I am reminded of whose Hands I am in and they are the strongest, most perfect, loving hands I could ever ask to be held by.....I know my Father is in control and I know how the story ends....