Shot From Hell....

It started last night with my lupron shot. I am now on my 6th night of shots. DH has done so good with all of these shots because there is no way that I was ever going to be able to stick myself. Well last night was rough. DH put the shot in and it hurt so bad I was crying and screaming for him to pull it out....it hurt so bad. When he pulled it out, I bled....he hit a vein. He felt so bad and told me he was so sorry he hurt me, he didn't mean to. I told him I know, but this is just so hard I don't know if I have the strength to keep going. So I prayed for God to give me the strength and then I had a pity party for myself....I had a big long cry as I laid in bed and I think I needed it. And so tonight the shots will continue yet again....

In the midst of this all I think I forget that my DH is on this road with me and when I hurt, he hurts....I forget to ask him how he is feeling and how he is doing. I get so consumed in my own pain that I can't see his....and I am ashamed of that. We are on this road together and have been for over two years and I forget that.....he is hurting too.

I love my husband more than I ever thought I could love a man. He has been my rock and my sanity. I don't know what I would do without him. This journey has made us and our marriage stronger and for that I am so thankful....with him by side in this journey we will make it and we will get our miracle.